who knows?

who knows how long i've loved you,
you know i love you still.
will I wait a lonely lifetime?
if you want me to, i will.


- the beatles

sunset

"show me the cat," he said. i had a question mark in my face then. 

"no, no it is now like a house. come on, show me where it is, quick" he said again. then i scratched my head. clueless, still confused. my mind just flashed back to now what seems like an eternity, back to when i was a kid. 

that was my childhood friend with questions for me. we were playing game. game to find shapes on clouds. shapes that we believe were of cats or houses or trees or just anything. sometimes those shapes changed quickly before our game finished. 

years gone by, in fact so many up to today, i am just back from work standing on a terrace of my room. it is one of those 'rare' days i am back from work this early. the sun is setting. there are clouds in the sky. its beautiful. then i see the 'cat shaped' cloud again. so many years after, i see my 'cat shaped cloud' again. may be this cloud did wait for me before, may be every week, but then i am too busy nowadays. i kept myself so busy... no time for sunset... no time for my childhood cloud.

i'm sorry. i can't help.