goodbye 2009

goodbye 2009. i will always remember you.

after all, you had a lot of turns for me. this year i got rid off a few projects much to my personal relief, joined college, made some wonderful friends, visited uk, and much treasured among all - met this musu who was with me to celebrate the eve.

and see, you have a blue moon on this new year eve. someone told me the next is only around 2028?

couldn't ask for more anyway. this is great.

close line

i managed to avoid a disasterous bike accident today.

luckily, i have never been involved in bike accident so far. i guess this is all due to big concentration i put on while riding. today was different though. reclling what happened today today is enough to raise my hair! my bike nearly skidded off the road. why? the answer is speed. i quickly picked that front wheel was losing grip by a fraction, but not before it was too late to cut off throttle and continue on with the flow. back to the balance on extreme speed then. it all happened too quickly and i did correct it so fast that my friend sitting behind didn't even notice all this. see what happened! sometimes it is better not to know that you were ever on risk :)

so why do we speed on then? why to those extreme levels? well, i guess its because, risks aside, there is a different thing to experience - something we don't feel everyday - the speed. it thrills, it gives you an adrenaline rush that you may not know is inside you. yes.

saved today. not sure until when. the journey continues though.

back from london

i'm back from london.
i will make another post on these things.

friday night in london

this is friday night in london. we are at the torch - a pub in wimbley. they have some sort of fantastic combo meal and of course, plenty of drinks. the speciality of this place, as they call it reggyoke, is that you get a chance to sing your favourite song while the crew plays a track for you.

lots of buzz... lots of songs and then a guy shows up. 'you know its true... everything i do... i do it for you...' he sings this timeless song by bryan adams. god, everyone loved it. deep down, somewhere in my mind, i thought that this song was now 'old' but listening to this guy singing with such abandon i realized few things do not fade out... it was like my interest on this song got renewed, pehaps this will never go away. thank you

evening at westminster

my watch shows 7pm, it is another cold evening in london. i have just finished my work at excel. the dlr comes up and i go in. this dlr thing is really nice railway the londoners have. i love how it travels on the bridge. canning town is just two stations away. i get off the dlr and change to jubilee line. it speeds up...

i stop at westminster and get out of the station. the view outside is beautiful. thames is reflecting lights from buildings on its bank. the amazing london eye stands proudly on the other side. i walk silently to the westminster bridge, take this snap and just stand there... its windy. its amazing.

who is your best friend?

i am in college library. four girls from my class have spent several minutes talking about how 'best friend' is like.

i am listening to them for quie a while. time for me to speak, i think. all i want is to bring their discussion to an end. i say that it is almost impossible to draw a line that tells you who exactly is your 'best' friend. you never know until time tests your relation. i was trying to make a point saying that i don't know who my best friend is.

then a girl stands up. as if i was kindergarten student, she starts with basic explanation - "a best friend is... " she goes on and on and on.

gosh!

picking up the pieces again

my frosty days are over, i think.

i am back in college after years. it feels so good. i've picked up a few things and made a fresh start. the energy is back, the motivation is all up again. some more years in kathmandu now.

i guess this is how it begins. this is how a turn in my life begins. good i hope.

10 digits in between us

unexpected, out of the blue we met by chance this morning.

a couple of years ago, she and i were in same college - shared notes, did lab work together and sometimes left the routine for a cup of tea at canteen. classes would never last forever. they came to end, exams tormented and were over, time took us on different ways. we never met since then. we didn't call each other either.

back now, it was a bit exciting to meet all of sudden on the street. what was it really like? i forgot the first reaction while i write this. we stopped for coffee, had some chat... there were a lot of things to catch up. our careers had changed, she would no longer drink ice-tea (surprise), her favourite dog was lost (i was not interested), and lots of things were different as you would imagine. i ordered another refill on coffee. i had same habit.

after a good morning hour spent together it was time to go. she put down her phone number on napkin paper. i did the same. we then realised we already had the numbers saved from years ago... just didn't call each other. out of the cafe i started my run up. the morning chill was already gone and sun was stronger.

even now, i don't know if one of us will ever ring another's mobile.
amazing but true... there are just 10 digits in between us.
we simply don't touch those 10 digits.

tihar 2009

kathmandu celebrates laxmi puja.

my family can't celebrate.

we've lost one in our family this year.

uk visa

i got my passport back with uk visa in there.
excited for another journey... looking forward to that long flight cruising at 39000ft with thousand of miles to go... blue skies, clouds and great views outside rather than london itself.

tiny delights

most of us miss out
on the life's big prize.
the pulitzer. the nobel. oscars.
but we all are eligeble for
life's small pleasures.
a pat on the back.
a kiss
behind the ear.
a full moon.
an empty space.
a crackling fire. a great meal. a glorious sunset.
hot soup.
cold beer.
dont fret about copping life's grand awards.
enjoy its tiny delights.
there are plenty for all of us.

- anonymous

drenched!

it rained all of sudden. i got fully drenched while returning from office this evening.
never mind.

funny how the years... they just pass us by

well, i wanted to write a few things in my blog today. i don't feel like doing this now.
just a part of lyrics from one of my favourite songs though...

funny how the years,
they just pass us by
seems like yesterday,
you were in my life
you always wanted to start a family
i was way too young,
i was runnin' free

if you could only see me now,
you'd realise
i'm not the boy who made you cry
you gave yourself,
i didn't see it
you died in me,
i should have saved you
wish you were here with me
i thought i knew it all,
how stupid could i be
i think of what i had,
and it makes me weep

sometimes,
you hurt the ones who love you most
and sometimes,
you hold the ones who leave you lost
and sometimes
you learn, but it's too late
it's too late

you gave yourself,
i didn't see it
you died in me,
i should have saved you
you gave yourself
why did you give youself to me
you died in me,
why was i too blind to see
wish you were here with me

funny how the years, they just pass us by...

rain

its raining outside.
i can hear it.

how far is that?

my shoulder is in pain. may be i didn't sleep well last night.

my mother thinks i am either too busy or getting lazy. may be she finds hard to tolerate my messed up room? it's not that bad anyway. i am expecting a phone call. my mobile hasn't flashed yet.

few more weeks before college starts. i can't wait. i don't know if i am going to miss 'leisure' days like this after college starts. may be i'll want some break at that time. but, see what is happening now! i am desperate to be back in class.

i'd like to study aeronautical science. but, to salvage a few things, i am going to study literature. i have given myself a couple of years to prepare for that, put together a few things, finish those leftovers, and see... they change... sometimes this 'everyday life' does stretch you to limit. you don't know how far is that, how far is the place you want to reach... how far is your search... how many days before you really feel you are on track... you don't know. you just hope things will get better, you hope you'll find the right track.

well, we can't go back and have a new beginning. but we can start now and make a new ending. i am happy thinking that i've found some way to make a new ending. let's see.

things go on...

solar eclipse of our lifetime

there will be a total solar eclipse on wednesday, 22 july.

south eastern district will see 100% total eclipse. for those in kathmandu it will start on 05:46:11, reach climax on 06:42:44 and end on 07:45:32. eclipse 96.3 %.

the last total eclipse seen from nepal was on 22 jan, 1898 and the next one will occur on 14 may, 2124. so, this will be a solar eclipse of a lifetime for us.

music is the best

i found this from one my friends' page on the internet -

information is not knowledge. knowledge is not wisdom. wisdom is not truth. truth is not beauty. beauty is not love. love is not music. music is the best.

couldn't complete reading that book

i returned five photos of my wife to library this afternoon.
it is not that the book isn't good but i could not just manage my time to read it after 30 odd pages. may be i'll borrow it again next month. i don't know.

few more weeks before college

few more weeks and i will be back in college again.

five photos of my wife

don't get me wrong, i am still unmarried.
i am just reading a novel five photos of my wife written by agnès desarthe.
it was written in french but translated into english by adriana hunter.

hazy kathmandu

i woke up this morning to find it is hazy outside. not something you'd expect when you're going to start your day. the pollution is gripping up all over.

finished reading 'antarmanko yatra'

this evening i finished reading 'antarmanko yatra,' a novel by jagadish ghimire.

its a masterpiece; a book with true expressions from the writer's inner heart. the book gave me a reminder that many times a journey is more important in life than the destination itself.

when people call my name wrong

it makes me angry when people just can't call my name right.
sandesh isn't that difficult - so why in this world some people call me (repeatedly) by wrong name like sandeep or sajay or santosh etc. i have to correct them every time. damn!

she is my good luck charm

shubhekshya and swikriti, my nieces, called me this evening. it was so nice to speak with them. the younger one, swikriti, is my good luck charm. i feel so elated everytime i hear her voice.

happy 2066

welcome 2066.
you're a new year in nepal. may you have all those happiness for us.

goodbye 2065

goodbye 2065. you've made us stronger. you've added more meaning. you had everything - fun, drama, tragedy, lessons and so many. may be i'll one day look back to you and remember what you offered.

got library membership today

now i am a member of kathmandu valley public library (kvpl).
i used to be a british council library member but they decided to shut it down a few months ago and donated all their books to kvpl. well, kvpl looks good in bhrikutimandap premises.

one new tune

i've learned a new tune 'happy birthday' in my guitar this morning.
really happy with the way i did.

i know she will not call

she and i were in same office a couple of years ago. today, i met her again by chance. we had a short talk - just hello things. she was in hurry; little uncomfortable. she asked my number. i don't know, may be she just asked. but i know she is not going to call me. this is how friendship fades into acquaintance. this is how things drift away unknowingly.

got a guitar today

i bought myself an acoustic guitar today. got something that i have had longing for so long.

back in kathmandu

i am back in kathmandu this morning.
it's cold here and i have a lot of things to catch up.
i will go and get a few things for myself before i join the routine.