it's my birthday

it's my birthday. three people remembered.

i am here at the b&b hospital, kathmandu. my dad has cancer. doctor told me the operation didn't work. i am left in the middle of nowhere.

stark reminder

today i had a stark reminder that it is better being alone than sitting among 'coward' people. you're in big trouble if you ever thought they might help when you really need it (and they won't do so).

school time favorite after years

today, downloaded a song that was once my schooltime favorite.

never before had i realized how exciting it might be to listen again a forgotten song. i'm talking about 'ho nahi sakta' (from bollywood movie 'diljale') that i loved to listen when i was in school (back to about 8 or 9 years).

in a haste of life i completely forgot this song and see... i found it today.

many things have changed; they have to; and they do. and yet many things can be as ever too...

the song somewhere says 'mere khwabo me jo ladki hai sachmuch ho nahi sakti... kisi ko bhi mai khwabo mein basalu... ho nahi sakta'

that translates somewhat like 'there can't be a (special) girl as in my thoughts... and no way i would ever keep just someone (ordinary) in my thoughts'

this is true...

sometimes

sometimes, only sometimes...

be like what they say 'irresponsible'. relax. you'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time you wasted hanging out with your friends. so, stay out late. go out on a tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due wednesday. spend money you don't have. drink 'til sunrise. the work never ends, but good time does... and one day you realize you may never meet someone again who was always good to you.

pizza bet

i won a bet with manu today.

we had a king size pizza at our office this afternoon. when we were about to finish, manu jumped out of skin announcing he could eat 'two more' king size pizzas. he and i had a bet (i claimed he would never finish eating those). pizza ordered. it arrived.

everyone in office thought manu had winning chance (and so i was alone). one and half hour of drama and all he could hardly finish was just one. manu's face was something to watch!

i won. i knew it - and like always i am strong when i am alone.

happy birthday jenny

here it comes; birthday of a staff.

she was born on 17th shrawan that (i think) which is 02 aug. it's today. she came to office, wearing red dress and visibly more cheerful. i wish her. (i guess) she was surprised a bit. after all she had never told that.

happy birthday jenny.

the countdown begins

i have decided - i'm not working here any more than 2 years from now. 2008 is a leap year so perhaps one more day. that means less than 731 days (and closing in).

the reason is - no matter how hard you try here're always some people who think you did nothing... and you'tre taking alway plenty.

going back to my own world.

heavy rain, slow music, and fast bike

it is late in the evening. i am still working in office. alone. the window is open. i see it is still raining outside.
i wait for more than an hour but the rain just doesn't stop. now the hell breaks out as power went off.

i pick up my mp3, load it with my favourite music collection, come out of office and start my bike. it is still raining heavily. i am fully drenched within seconds. i don't care. i ride on dark streets and you know it is beautiful to listen to the rain that is slapping down the ground.

i never thought it can be such an amazing experince - biking in heavy rain, fully drenched, the dark sky is lightening, and some thunder sounds. i continue on my bike. i wished my room was hundreds of miles far away... and i could just ride alone for hours on and on.

now that's one of my favourite music playing in - song 'no place that far' by westlife... it says just close your eyes and you'll be here with me...

through the night

what can take you through the night?

i don't know about others. in my case that's not anyone's thought. neither it is hunting memory nor any worries for tomorrow.

it is just my favorite music collection i can listen the whole night. mltr - denmark, westlife - uk, and collectiions...

listening the 'puzzle of my heart', 'no place that far', 'close', 'strange foreign beauty'... and there's 'swear it again'...

...what else can i ask?

welcome jenny

we have a new staff at office from today - Jennny.

she was interviewed yesterday and asked to join office from today. jenny is going to be a first lady staff here after a long time. i think it is good to have her join our team.

see if she comes in

office thing now.

a lady was coming in for interview (we have a vacancy) today. she came in right on time, 14:00 sharp, fine. good looks, studying bachelow and with some enthusiasm - we decided to appoint her.

we told her that she will have an all-round job here; from handling customer enquiries to office operations, correspondence and may be sometimes overtime work.

she agreed.